Its not even really abt my body that much anymore so why am I freakin out abt a skirt not fitting?
I want to purge till I cant fuckin move..
I want to let what seemed like such a beautiful dream to me go. (recovering)
I want to just... Go back. Just... Let go of everything.
I have been separating myself from everyone. My girlfriend even. You all know how much I love her to peaces, I don't even want to be around her a lot anymore. I'm drawing THAT far away...
Everything is just CRUSHING disappoint in my world right now it seems.
I really need some professional help.
I've had so many suicidal thoughts its unbelievable. Literally, I can just look at something and instantly in my head is 5 ways to kill myself. I can look at a paper bag and think of 4 right now. Lmfao....
So I'm logging off. this may be the only post i've left up in.. 4/5 days? (but i'll probably come back and delete it in a hour..) see.. I'm even drawing away from u guys.
Ganna lay on my bed naked and open up the windows in my room so i'll be cold as fuck.
BTW, I wouldn't kill myself. I've put to much effort into living, and that would really hurt my Girlfriend..
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